It's been almost a year since I last made a journal entry haha, although I've made the occasional upload between now and then. So I guess I haven't been completely gone from the site haha. Although I haven't been the best at following through with my statement in my last entry, I still feel the same way: I wanna go back to uploading stuff on here for the sake of having some archives. But, also, I forgot that we can journal on here. I like journaling on social media, but sometimes there are certain things that I'd rather some people don't see. None of my friends except for maybe two people follow me on here, and they don't come on here anymore anyways. So, I figured this could be a potential safe place (and if they do come here still and they see this...lol hi guys).
Lately, I feel like I've been walking the line between "I'm fine" and "always on the verge of tears". It sucks because I think I know why I've been feeling so bad lately, and if I'm right, I don't even know why I'm letting it upset me. And then the fact that I'm not even 100% sure that I know what's been causing this mood makes it more complicated when it shouldn't be complicated in the first place. As much as I try to understand my own emotions, sometimes I just can't. But, well...thank God for the arts. (hehe, that's the title of this thing. c: )
Music and drawing have been my anchors lately, especially the former. I really don't know where I'd be if I didn't have these outlets; probably curled up in my bed crying, tbh. They're like those friends that will always be there for me when I need them, even if they frustrate me sometimes lol. I have a couple of projects that I'm working on right now and even more ideas that I haven't started yet, so hopefully some of those will be uploaded soon. c: We'll see how good I am about following up this time around haha.
Well, I should stop procrastinating now. If anyone read this: I sincerely hope that you have a good day, and that you'll find peace with whatever may be troubling you. <3 Much love, and God bless!